Saw J for the first time today - potential new counsellor recommended by my GP. It was a really good session. All went well, all looks promising, and I feel so much safer knowing there is a "space" and a support in place after Monday when I see D for the last time. That last session actually feels manageable now - very reassuring. It will still be hard to end it all, but at least I know I can work on the things I still need to work on. What is more, there is no limit to the number of sessions I can have with J, and I can pay what I can afford to.
I feel safe.