It's been a very rocky day today.

The school part was OK - well, the times in front of the classes were (except for the ghastly Y7 Maths, which I knew would be difficult). Times in the staff room were OK, but I kept drifiting off - I have been very dissociative today and it has bothered me a lot. A couple of other people spotted that I was "away with the fairies".

I had a gym session tonight. I thought I would be fine, but it was really hard. Several people seemed (to me) quite insensitive; like the chap in the gym who put rap music on really loud in the studio when ja nd I were working on something. Then the other chap who really invaded my space by barging into the equipment I was using, pulling a bench really close, cutting me off from my phone (which really bugged me). And then during the yoga there were a couple of really hard points, and another flashback of some kind....

Staying grounded is a battle I don't even know if I want to fight right now. It sometimes seems that not being in contact would be better than being in contact. I'm struggling here.