Things seem (touch wood, fingers crossed, pray hard) to be on the up for me, mental health wise. While I have had occasional low points, they have been less low and shorter. And I am generally feeling positive. I even managed a decent night's sleep without sleeping tablets last night. I'm enjoying teaching (though the drama lesson I taught today was definitely NOT one of my best - well outside my comfort zone!) and pupils are mostly responding positively.
Some of this is down to the increased light. A lot of it is down to a period of stability in the support I am being given. I've found that my current CMHT are to be trusted (and am trying to do so). It's still scary knowing that sessions with D will end - part of me sees her as the lynchpin, the person who has ensured that the support has been there when it has been needed. The underlying fear is that it will not be there once my contact with her has gone. But I'm trying really hard not to catastrophise and to keep reminding myself that the people I am in contact with now have not let me down. She has also given me some assurances which have helped.
So I'm sharing a sunny moment with you. HOpe the sun is shining where you are too.