More alcohol than usual tonight. Actually, I have been doing well with that recently. Stable, not wanting to drink to relieve my fears or numb myself.
Guess that is reversed tonight.
Hope I will get back in balance tomorrow.
At least need to be able to keep up appearances before the session with D & D on Wednesday.
I asked D why the sessions. My fear was that D had been ordered to see me. She assured me not. Having read my notes I am no longer sure. I don't know who I can trust any more.
This scares me.