More alcohol than usual tonight. Actually, I have been doing well with that recently. Stable, not wanting to drink to relieve my fears or numb myself.
Guess that is reversed tonight.
Hope I will get back in balance tomorrow.
At least need to be able to keep up appearances before the session with D & D on Wednesday.
I asked D why the sessions. My fear was that D had been ordered to see me. She assured me not. Having read my notes I am no longer sure. I don't know who I can trust any more.
This scares me.
I'm a rambling mass of inconsistencies, some hidden and some all too apparent. A "messy human", wishing to be visible and yet invisible, cherishing my differences but longing to fit in.
Blogs I read
- A Fortunate Man
- A Long Walk to Forever
- Awareness
- Dare to Dream
- Fighting the Urge
- Frolicking Through Llife
- Good in parts
- I'm a Medical Student...
- Lake Cocytus
- Mandy
- Marcella
- Medicines, Animals and a Dream
- Mental nurse
- Mouse
- Nearly time
- Neenaw
- One Pedestrian Away
- Pip
- Pole to Polar
- Police Inspector Blog
- Rainbow Dreams
- Random Acts of Reality
- Rufus May
- Schizophrenia - a Carer's Story
- Seratonin
- The fight for Mrs Carr
- The muddled marketplace
- There and Back
- Traumaqueen
- Useless CPN
2 comments:
hoping the session goes well
Thanks. It did, though at the start I didn't think it was going to at all and was very scared. It was hard and I haven't yet had time to process it all, especially given the day I have had at work. I need to do that but not sure when it will happen.
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