At the meeting last week I received the copy of my psychotherapy notes that I had asked for. Since then I have been rereading them. I wish I had asked for them a long time ago - they are so helpful and so useful to me, showing me the journey I have made and how far I have come. I don't know that they would have been appropriate while I was going through the therapy, but certainly after completion they have really helped and given me a boost.
Having said that, I did have a dip yesterday evening and felt very low. It's always so scary when that happens - visions of decending into the abyss flash up so quickly. I have to remind myself (as C and I discussed last week) that these dips are becoming shorter and that I am putting into place the activities needed to ensure they don't overwhelm me. It appears, in this case, to have been a simple tiredness reaction - I didn't wake until 10am this morning, which is very unusual for me. Feeling much more positive this morning. Thinking back over the last week, I haven't yet readjusted my bedtime to reflect the fact that it was a working week not a holiday week - I must make sure I do that next week.
Plans for this weekend include some serious housework this afternoon. W is taking E for a party / sleepover this afternoon, then going to see if he can get her cello bow repaired (hope so, as she has an important exam on Wednesday!) Tomorrow will involve (lots of) marking and the week's planning; I have enjoyed my first week's work on The Tempest and am quite looking forward to planning the next week.