Saturday, 12 April 2008

More notes

At the meeting last week I received the copy of my psychotherapy notes that I had asked for. Since then I have been rereading them. I wish I had asked for them a long time ago - they are so helpful and so useful to me, showing me the journey I have made and how far I have come. I don't know that they would have been appropriate while I was going through the therapy, but certainly after completion they have really helped and given me a boost.

Having said that, I did have a dip yesterday evening and felt very low. It's always so scary when that happens - visions of decending into the abyss flash up so quickly. I have to remind myself (as C and I discussed last week) that these dips are becoming shorter and that I am putting into place the activities needed to ensure they don't overwhelm me. It appears, in this case, to have been a simple tiredness reaction - I didn't wake until 10am this morning, which is very unusual for me. Feeling much more positive this morning. Thinking back over the last week, I haven't yet readjusted my bedtime to reflect the fact that it was a working week not a holiday week - I must make sure I do that next week.

Plans for this weekend include some serious housework this afternoon. W is taking E for a party / sleepover this afternoon, then going to see if he can get her cello bow repaired (hope so, as she has an important exam on Wednesday!) Tomorrow will involve (lots of) marking and the week's planning; I have enjoyed my first week's work on The Tempest and am quite looking forward to planning the next week.


mandy lifeboats appeal said...

Hi D

After a hectic day yesterday and playing catch up today. Hence not been to your blog before and here now. :>)

First weeks back after breaks are always a bit fluxy. Em has to re-adjust her sleep patterns a couple of days before she goes back to uni after holidays to get back into a routine.

Is good that you are able to look back and reflect on how you have done and get some re-assurance from yourself (notes) and others on how you are coping. Which, from here, seems really well.

Hope your Sunday is a good one for you and that your enthusiasm for teaching The Tempest (and possie vibes in classroom) continue.

Personally, I prefer King Lear but then again I like Shakespeare when he is biting the backside (so to speak)

Rainbow dreams said...

Tiredness can have such a huge impact on how we feel... pleased you slept.
Hope you're enjoying your planning and have some space for you aswell.
I need to get on with some serious housework too...instead it gets done in dribs and drabs!

Disillusioned said...

Thanks Mandy - I think a lot of how I am feeling is accountable to the return to work. really need to get sleep routines on track again next week though - otherwise I can see a slippery slope ahead.The Tempest isn't my favourite Shakespeare - I like Lear as well, but Richard III has a special place for me too. But Tempest is quite fun. Must reread the original though...

Katie, thanks. Had a curtailled night again last night though and hence lower mood today. well, sleep and the planning and marking I need to do have both combined for that...