Reading lots at the moment to try and work things out within myself.
Some of my recent reading has highlighted the need to "stay" with issues, to recognise the emotions involved and to identify signs that I might be running away by dissociating. I really need to work on this. I need to be ready to pick up on the signals that I am escaping and do something about them, even though everything inside me wants to take the escape route. I can see this is a big one for me and I am really scared of it. But I am not sure I can make the progress I want to unless I avoid the avoidance. I need to connect with those painful issues. I want to - and yet self preservation urges me not to.
A busy day ahead today. E has a revision day at school, so I have an hour long round trip to take her there. Then I have a gym session booked, followed by a class, and then I am due to meet with C. This afternoon I really really need to get round to doing some school work - assessments to mark, schemes of work to write, online resources to create and all sorts of other stuff to do.
I guess I should build in some me time too...