Tuesday, 26 February 2008

Secrets and openness

Long discussion with someone at school today during which I told her far more about myself than I intended to. It was in the context of trying to help my daughter. Now I feel mixed up, guilty, ashamed, dirty even. Thank goodness I see C tomorrow and can talk some things through with her.


Kathryn said...


Jessica said...

I understand how you feel.
I lost my job today.
I trusted my boss, but she chose a fellow worker of 2 mths experience over me ( I worked there 5 years) because she played mind games with me and I couldn't handled her and I asked for help.

I felt betrayed and discriminated.

Hope you will be alright.

Disillusioned said...

Thank you, K.

Jessica, I'm sorry that happened to you.

Rainbow dreams said...

Hugs and love, sorry you feel like this..xx Katie

mandy lifeboats appeal said...

Hi D

I told someone (close to me) about something private and painful..not sure what I expected but what I got was "Well, no wonder you are screwed up then".

End of.

I guess if anything, that has taught me that if I open up, I have to do it with zilch expectation. In fact, I think some things (for me) are better left unsaid.

I will survive. Cue Gloria Gaynor.

Disillusioned said...

Katie, thank you. Mandy too. It wasn't her reaction that made me feel that way - just telling it. Actually, Mandy, one of the more positive things about remembering what i Have is that it does explain a lot.

mandy lifeboats appeal said...

Hi D

I tried posting and it came up as some kind of error. So will cut this short.

Glad that remembering has explained things to you. Maybe you have more clarity now..or more questions in yourself. I think that is natural.

Are you seeing the professional support worker today? Don't mean to sound derisive of their vocational status. If so, and you have built up trust with them, they could help. I hope so.


Disillusioned said...

Hi Mandy

Yes, I saw C today. She was great. Realy good. Have some strategies to move on and deal with now cos I can't do anything about then. Scary times.