... so much to do and i am not sure where to start.
I want to change but don't know how to. I can see what went wrong but not how to repair it. I can see I need to change the way I think but I don't know how to do it, and I don't know how to learn to recognise my own emotions. How pathetic is that?
I want to help my friend but don't know how to. Her depression scares me because I know how it feels. I feel driven to try to help - but know that doing things is probably not the answer, for her or for me.
I want to do my job well but don't know how to. Especially when we are told "Do this, do that, do the other, and don't forget the monitoring".
But the time to do this, that and the other is not there. Nor is the promised time for the monitoring.
When I ask about this I am made to feel guilty.
And we are told we are not being asked to do more, just to do differently - but nobody will tell me what it is I can stop doing in order to do the new things.
There is too much on this week (something every night) ... and this weekend ... and next week too ... and I am losing my "handle" on what each task is, where and when I need to be.
I just feel overloaded. I want things to stop.