Thursday, 10 January 2008


I'm working on this with D.

I'm finding it hard. Very hard. Very unsettling.

I don't want to think about it any more. I don't want to look at anger any more. I have never wanted to see it - in myself or in others, and I find expressing it (except against myself) really difficult. It's much easier to agree it must all be my fault.


marcella said...

Well done for working with it - it's much easier to keep running away from it (which in many ways is what i'm doing at the moment - whoops). You are an inspiration to me to face things - thank you

MMP said...

I've always found ponds to be amazing things... stay with me here, eyebrows back down!

Surface of the pond calm and tranquil,
underneath- who knows what's going on.

And don't we want to keep that surface calm and tranqil?

Only... we are the adults now. We can call some shots.
We can decide.

Huge and very major hugs as you learn about this thing called anger.

And I agree with Marcella....

Kathryn said...

I'm so glad you're being helped to a safe space to work with this...Lots of love and prayers to carry you

Rainbow dreams said...

I'm glad too that you are being helped with this. It's a hard thing to look at at any time...
for anyone..
love and hugs

Disillusioned said...

I don't feel at all like an imspiration, Marcella and mmp. Though I do like the pond metaphor, and I do appreciate the belief you have in me.
Kathryn and Katie, your hugs and prayers and positive thoughts continue to carry me forward - I hope - even when I feel stuck in this quagmire.