Sunday, 29 July 2007

Church this morning

caught me unawares, I think. I genuinely didn't think that I would find it hard - but within minutes of entering, the number of people around got to me. Thank goodness for D, our pastor, who saw me arriving, gave me a hug, and, with L, sat next to me. Thank goodness for him following me when I had to get out (one word just triggered me, completely unexpectedly) and for his willingness to talk and listen, yet again.

There were good things too, and minor achievements. I did go, and stayed for the service (even if I was not in the service for all of it!) I went back after my minor break down. Actually, the minor break down was probably not totally a bad thing - I had been holding in a lot of stuff and release is good. I was able to join in the singing and mean some of it. Lots of people made me feel welcome. I was even able (briefly) to pray. And I will be back, and it will get easier.

4 comments:

Rainbow dreams said...

Am thankful too that D and L were there and am pleased you can see the good things from it, hug, Katie,x

Kathryn said...

Bravo...I prayed for you as I presided this morning - and am so glad that D and L were able to recognise and respond to your need.
You are doing so well - such courage, and so many milestones passed.

Caroline said...

that's so postive! am really pleased that you were able to go, and leave, and go back, and that you were so supported

huge hug
xc

Fiona Marcella said...

Well done, to D and L and above all to you.