R & R

That's what today has been. I've chilled out - achieved a few (very few) minor things, but switching off was probably the main achievement.

It's interesting to note how much better my sleep has been recently than in the days preceding my teaching...

Did some cutting out of bag linings (Caroline, I will take my courage in my hands and post some pictures soon - promise!) Had a half-hearted tidy of our bathroom - not the blitz I planned first thing this morning, but a start, and probably more realisitc. Gave in and sorted the laundry (obviously nobody else was going to!) Left piles on the bed and no doubt they are still there waiting to be put away. Hung the washing on the line (and DID ask the girls to bring it in for me this evening). Set myself some targets re work next week - mostly restrictions on what I will do rather than ambitions plans of what I should do. Took H into town so he could go to the pub with friends and have a drink - he will get a taxi back. Emptied all the upstairs bins. Actually, that's looking like quite a reasonable set of achievements. Also took time to do quite a bit of genealogy, which was fun, and I made some new breakthroughs. Am putting together a collection of my poems, with plans to take some photos to accompany them and maybe - maybe - put onto Lulu... Oh, and had a appointment with my wonderful GP, at which he was affirming and reassuring and encouraging and solution focused... He has prescribed an alternative anti-histamine, which hopefully will make me less dopey. We discussed a reduction in the Trazodone; he said reducing would almost certainly cause no problems but agreed that the summer holidays was a better time to do that. He said I was the perfect patient (!) in that I did everything asked of me, including conforming to meds prescribed. I had to, in all honesty,remind him of my refusal to return to the Quetiapine, at which he smiled and agreed, but didn't retract his approval. We discussed ending of my psychotherapy and the absence of my CPN / care co-ordinator - and he told me I woudl be fine, I'd fly through it...
It's good to have other people be confident in me. I need the reassurance still. I'm inclined to be a bit nervous about it all myself, to be honest...