Today was a training day.
I'd feel more positive about myself if I had been teaching.
It was a day of being told to jump through hoops - to prove we are doing things most of us are already doing, and to name them all using the official terminology. To subscribe to certain beliefs about the best way of doing things.
It was a day of warnings - the dreaded "O" word (except that i no longer dread it quite so much, because if they don't like the job I am doing, when I am doing the best I can, then it is time for me to leave.)
It was a day of technical problems and failures. Of not being able to do things we should be able to do.
It was a day of feeling disheartened - and trying to remind myself of what really matters, trying to rekindle the enthusiasm.
I'm glad the pupils will be in tomorrow - even if it does mean that I am losing my non-contact lesson to cover.