Today I ended up crying at work again. Three times.
There is so much to do and I put so much pressure on myself to do it all, particularly when other people are involved. I can see that I put so much of myself into my lessons, into my interactions with other staff, trying to help them etc. It really shouldn't surprise me that I end up shattered. Today the straw which broke me was saying no, and feeling I had disappointed other people. It is hard. I can't seem to break it.
More positively, I did open up to a friend at work and she had some good suggestions. I haven't followed them through tonight, but have arranged for my husband to take the girls to school tomorrow (it's my consultancy day) which will give me an hour or more clear to get somethigns (including my head) a bit more together. I hope!