Sunday, 26 October 2008


All by a stupid TV programme.
I'm trying to pull out the stops. Have occupied myself with some housework, reading, journalling and now some online genealogy. Have taken valium. All in efforts to avoid self harm etc. Yet again I wish I could just blot everything out for a while.
I have plans for this holiday - in terms of work and in terms of housework. I need to add in some plans in terms of enjoyment too.


La-reve said...

Sorry you feel so edgy, I think focusing on something enjoyable for week is a good idea. Could you go fro one of your massages know that has helped before?

Lareve x

Disillusioned said...

Thank you.
Awful night last night.
Phoned J who was great and helped me to calm a little. Just don't know what to believe any more.
Unfortunately massage is not possible this week - the therapist is on holiday. Will have to find something else. Maybe I need to get myself into town for a facial... Just feel bad about spending yet more money on myself.