Monday, 15 September 2008

Balance



... oops - I wobbled!


The weekend was dominated - too dominated - by working. How to find a balance, that's my current issue. I too easily slip into working all the time - school work or housework or both. That certainly happened this weekend. I really noticed the effects on coming home from work, where i felt on edge, irritable, tired - and yet, instead of taking time to relax, I set to with housework.
I forgot the break and lunch time relaxation task too. And the daily journalling. I'm not doing too well at the looking after myself bit at the moment.
I recognise too that triggers - major, fundamental, historical family ones - have been at work this weekend. I have taken steps to minimise them, but they are having an impact. My next counselling session isn't until Friday this week - wish it were sooner.
Oh well.
Focusing on the end point again now, stilling my breathing and trying to remind myself I don't have to do everything, don't have to be perfect.
Action plan -
Relaxation is a MUST.
Sleeping tablets - alternate nights may not be manageable just at the moment.
Daylight - I need to get more. Will try to fit in a lunchtime walk this week.
Breathe.....

5 comments:

marcella said...

Terrifying picture, simply terrifying. Do get out in the sun while we have it - I'm fully convinced by this story http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/uk/scotland/article4761661.ece

MMP said...

euw, Nasty picture!
so sorry it's that tough for you right now

Disillusioned said...

Sorry you find thepic frightening. It sums up so much how I feel right now though...

Marcella - I read that article too, and like you am convinced by it.

La-reve said...

Hey
You do seem to be doing a lot there, but good that you are able to recognise it, the next step is trying to take time out (the hardest bit I know). Do work know about your difficulties and perhaps could lessen your burdens or is it you burdening yourself? Hope you aort it anyway.

Disillusioned said...

Thanks, la-reve.

Yes, work know about the (historical) difficulties. I think it is mostly me burdening myself at present, though my occupation is always challenging! I continue to work at it.
Time of the month doesn't help much, as I have realised today!