I am so glad D was able to rearrange this. It was such a helpful session.
Moving on for me involves accepting what happened to me is not something I have made up or concocted, and that I am not responsible for it. I also need to look after myself and my inner child. I have negotiated a "day out" just for me during the holidays and I am going to visit a petting farm. Hopefully there will be lots of baby animals there (as well as older ones!) and if I can I will bottle feed a lamb too.
Feeling emotionally fragile tonight - but also aware that I have, over the last few days, survived something which could have turned into a crisis, but didn't. Thank you all for your support.