Saturday, 8 March 2008

Rage

Had a moment of overwhelming rage yesterday. It surprised me, seemed to come out of nowhere and to be addressed at nothing I could figure out.
Of course, thinking about it, it wasn't addressed at anything that was actually happening there and then, but at things that happened in the past. There is feeling inside me about all of this and I need to face it, because I have to find ways of expressing how I feel rather than storing it up and having it explode like this.
I felt this was connected to The Little One – it was her rage, and she was unable to express it, either then or now. A challenge for me is to help her to do that and to accept it for myself, now. She couldn’t put it into words. I don’t know if that was because she didn’t have the words, or because she couldn’t emotionally accept or express that rage.

3 comments:

mandy lifeboats appeal said...

Hi D

Am in no position to offer anything of much use, except to say am reading, with care and interest.

Hope you find a place (and maybe you need some help with that) where your child can express her rage and you can come to understand it.

x

Isabel said...

I am a new reader to your blog, you remind me of myself in so many way. I only just started to read over your old posts from last year and it’s nice to realise I am not always alone in the way I think and feel.

Keep well… x

Isabel

Disillusioned said...

THank you Mandy. I'm hoping the nurturing and paying attention to The Little One will help, in time.

Isabel, welcome - than you for reading. Sorry you have been through similar. Hope you keep visiting.