Am working hard at not being dependent, at becoming more self reliant. Lots of self doubt in there though. I guess the more I rely on myself the more I will trust myself to cope. I hope so.

It's hard - how does anyone decide when they are seeking help appropriately and when they are just being lazy / dependent? How do I disentangle old messages about my lack of worth, my need for support, the issues I am currently dealing with (which add stress), past criticism from mental health professionals about my desire for support, and current messages which encourage me to ask for the help I need. It's a tangled web.