Damn it

Just that.

It's been a tough old week and I am struggling to get my head round it all. So much of what has happened I can't post here, can't post in its entirity anyway. Lots of it I can't put into words. Too many contradictions uncertainties and downright scariness.

Am hoping a weekend of sleep and doing as little as possible will revive me.

In the meantime I need to remember that I can only do what I can.

When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head,
And the thoughtful words of health and hope
Have all been nicely said.
But I'm still hurting,
Wondering if I'll ever be
The one I think I am. I think I am.
Then you gently re-remind me
That you've made me from the first,
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst.
And I realize the good in me,
Is only there because of who you are.
Who you are...
And all I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.
Any more or less would be a step
Out of your plan.
As you daily recreate me,
Help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do
What I can find.
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.

Gary Chapman