Friday, 9 January 2009

Lost

I had my last session with J yesterday before she goes on holiday. My next session is in three weeks time. Gulp. It was a good session though - very useful.

All was going well; I had a positive phone conversation witha colleague about the support work I am doing; went into my own school to do some support work with a couple of staff there - and then set off for a meeting. The meeting was at a school I had never been to before, in Mandy's neck of the woods. I googled it and printed off a map of where it was, then set out.

I drove around the area for 45 minutes. Couldn't find it, or anything that looked like it. I ended up in a complete panic, totally lost.
I phoned my friend who was running the meeting to tell her I wasn't going to be able to make it. She (having SatNav) came out to find me. I cried in her car for a long time.

Feel very wobbly still today. Lots tied up in this, I know - it wasn't just about being lost on the way to a meeting. Feel forced into going into work today when I know it would help me a lot to take a day off to recover from this desperate feeling I have, but there you go. Am hoping I will pull things together this weekend.

6 comments:

marcella said...

What a very nasty experience.

I'm such a hopeless navigator that I get lost myself on a regular basis. I wouldn't recommend it as a learning experience, but you do get used to it!

Here's hoping that today isn't too bad and that the weekend provides time to rest and recuperate.

Mandy said...

H C

Is good that the sessions are helping you. I know that sounds crass but J is someone that seems to be there for you and in a professional capacity. Can understand worries that you won't be seeing her for a few weeks. For some of us one professional (be it in the NHS or private sector) can make all the difference.

I know i have concerns about private care but if J is providing something good for you I am not going to knock that :>)

Hope you get through today without too much stress and can relax over the weekend.

La-reve said...

Hi
sorry you had traumatic time. I hope work was bearable and the weekend is better x

theMuddledMarketPlace said...

gulp. well done for getting through it all...

Kathryn said...

You will find your way home, I promise

Disillusioned said...

Thank you all.