Tuesday, 13 January 2009

I am feeling...

...a bit overwhelmed. Lots of things competing for attention in my head right now - short term (is tea cooked yet), medium term (what about that lesson I haven't planned? What am I going to say at the two sessions I have agreed to give at a regional conference? What date should we go to visit my parents?) and long term (What about younger daughter's GCSE options? Will I ever complete an MA?)

... very tired. I need to get to bed earlier and use my "free" time more profitably.

...somewhat disorganised. Housework needs more time, bills to pay, letters to file.

...scared and childlike. Longing to hide away. Feeling alone; missing J, knowing I won't see her for some time yet.

...stretched. the needs of others are taking on a much greater priority than my own wellness. I am not sure how to address this.


Mandy said...

Hi C

I am not sure if this will provide any reassurance...no that isn't the right word..but something to you that shows you aren't alone in this

Everyone close to me who has a pre-disposition to MH/post trauma and other struggly stuff is struggling
more so at present.

Some of it could be time of year, for sure it is personal too but is January. That time where we are encouraged to make resolutions, put our best foot forward and go forth with a cheery smile into the New Year.

Reality: It is cold, dark and there is a recession on. Doesn't exactly warm the cockles.

Hugs from someone who is singing (to one of the tunes in Lion King) "I just can't wait till the spring" :>)

theMuddledMarketPlace said...

must be a bit like trying to unpick knitting when the cat's been at it

Disillusioned said...

Thanks Mandy. Yes, this time of year is hard, hard, hard. I need to use my light box more....

MMP - a great analogy, and very true.