Taking gentle steps... J is so gentle - we get where we need to be, but she helps me to feel as safe as I can given where I am right now.
Yesterday we looked at needing others ... and at allowing ourselves to feel strong and that being OK and right ... and at a new technique she wants to try in our next session ... and did some guided imagery. All challenging things for me, but I felt OK about them.
Some great pieces of writing to take away with me - some I may post here.
CMHT support? Why even bother wondering? Nothing, of course. Why should there be? I don't deserve it. Clearly. The only question is whether I attend my appointment with the psychiatrist next week to tell him I am discharging myself or whether I just phone and cancel. For a long time I have felt as if I have to ask to be discharged - slowly I am starting to recognise that I can just do it. I'd like BLPT to understand why I am doing so, but they never will, or at least, will never accept my experience of events, so why bother?