I'm struggling just now with lots of physical aches and pains. My lower back is often a problem - and it certainly is just now. My shoulders hurt all the time, my neck is painful and I have almost constant headaches.
All of these are, I am fairly sure, related to stress and tension. There's so much change going on in my life just at present - and I don't "do" change very well. I'm working really hard at reminding myself of this, and at trying to take sensible steps to deal with the physical pain.
I have my final session with D on Monday. This is a massive stress for me.
I am starting with a new counsellor, J. I feel really positive about this, but am still anxious about it, not least because I will be looking at some pretty tough stuff with her.
I'm a bit uneasy about a relationship with another person. Things aren't going well and I don't know what to do about it.
I return to school on Monday (term starts Tuesday for the pupils).
My younger daughter, H, starts at her new school on Tuesday. There are logistical considerations for her, and I just hope she is going to be happier at her new school than she has been over the last couple of years.
My elder daughter, E, starts sixth form the following week. Nothing major to worry about there, but it's still a change - and a reminder that in 2 years she will be leaving home to head to University.
Add in all the flashbacks, memories and uncertainties and I guess I do have something of a recipe for stress.
What am I doing? Well, I'm using heat pads a lot. I need to spend less time at the computer and sewing because that makes it worse. I need to get back to the gym. I've used paracetomol when the pain gets unbearable. I also have some prescription anti-inflammatories which Iwas given for my back when it flared up before, so I have been using those. I'm having my fortnightly massage. Maybe swimming might help - it feels more manageable than the gym just at the moment. Mostly I think I need to get through this next week and hope pressures start to ease.