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I'm a rambling mass of inconsistencies, some hidden and some all too apparent. A "messy human", wishing to be visible and yet invisible, cherishing my differences but longing to fit in.
Blogs I read
- A Fortunate Man
- A Long Walk to Forever
- Awareness
- Dare to Dream
- Fighting the Urge
- Frolicking Through Llife
- Good in parts
- I'm a Medical Student...
- Lake Cocytus
- Mandy
- Marcella
- Medicines, Animals and a Dream
- Mental nurse
- Mouse
- Nearly time
- Neenaw
- One Pedestrian Away
- Pip
- Pole to Polar
- Police Inspector Blog
- Rainbow Dreams
- Random Acts of Reality
- Rufus May
- Schizophrenia - a Carer's Story
- Seratonin
- The fight for Mrs Carr
- The muddled marketplace
- There and Back
- Traumaqueen
- Useless CPN
5 comments:
Still thinking and sending love. Ideas about moving forward sound good, x
I know you are finding this all terribly hard, but coming from a family where half the members just WILL NOT TALK to anyone with a psych in their title I think you are doing amazingly well to be still engaging with D, working out where to go from now, facing those fears instead of burying them - well done. You're amazing and an inspiration really you are. Thank you.
Thank you Katie for the positive thoughts.
Marcella, thank you too for the encouragement. D and I talked last session about how I don't want to stay where I am. I still want to run away from all this. I want it not to be happening. I am completely terrified, sometimes think I am totally stuck. The dissociation is a reflection of that, I guess - and dissociation (along with the self harm) has been a significant feature for me recently. I just haven't been that honest about it here. I suspect you are seeing a very one-sided picture of me really, because I can't bear to show the whole piture. Maybe I need to do that too. But thank you.
to be utterly honest with you, i don't know how much of the whole picture anyone shows.
lots of people keep their terrors firmly under lock and key, merely a veneer showing to the world.
then something happens and a veneer won't hold the back log of emotion...
and that's when it all has to be sorted...and when it gets messy.
mess isn't something most people gaily scatter around like confetti.
it's gently and slowly shared, to other who won't trample our hurt.
You are a brave woman
to be personal "I keep/ kept...."
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