Saturday, 14 July 2007
One week to go
Feeling tired and discouraged. I keep feeling all this conflict must be my fault. I keep feeling I must be doing something wrong or expecting too much. Or that it is the case that I really am a difficult customer, as has been said about me. Keeping up the positive beliefs about myself is hard work just now. They can't all be wrong, surely?
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ah but you see, and please don't read this as affirmation of them - it does't matter if they are right. you are still entitled to help, and they are supposed to be the people with the skills, knowledge, expertise and resources to provide you with help.
If (and i mean if) you are being a difficult customer, from your version of events you have every right to be one, you have tried the 'compliance route' and it has not been of any use. unless and until you behave in such a way that you are in breach of their behaviour codes (ie you are verbally or physically offensive and aggressive and have been warned...(!)) they cannot simply not provide you with a service simply because of the way you ask for that service.
you may be a 'dfficult' customer in that your presenting needs are difficult to meet within their resources but that is their problem and not yours and is no reason for them to bully you into submission.
you may be a difficult customer beause you don't fit into the easy to allocate day patient service because you want to combine 'normal life' with some support, but that is what 'community care' is supposed to be about, not becoming part of the 'ill' community but trying to remain part of the outside worlkd, with support to do so.
you may be a 'difficult customer' in the sense that you fight back - well bloody well done to you my love, you are doing absolutley the right thing.
Don't let yourself be bullied into submission my love, you be as difficult as it takes, and then some. You are doing nothing wrong (you are simply not doing it their way) and you are not expecting too much (you are just receiving too little)
stick with it if you can, but most imporatnly be gentle with yourself and take care of yourself.
xC
My friend speaks wise words....it's their job to help you, come what may, and their failure if they cannot and will not do so.
You've very sensibly tried to protect yourself by withdrawing from the conflict situation...Try to rest and remember that you are loved, as you are.
such wise friends, what more could I possibly add??? have some positive thoughts xxx
I can't add much to the above - except to say that ALL mental health issues are "difficult". If they weren't none of these people would have jobs. If anxiety or eating issues or depression or voices could be cured by a pill, we'd ALL just trot down to our GP, collect the green piece of paper, hand it over at the chemists and go on our merry ways.
Please, for now, rest and look after you. I'm taking a rest too from my close relationship with the Trust's Complaints' Officer. What he doesn't realise is that I'm getting used to my new medication, attending to me and mine and regrouping and I WILL BE BACK. So will you, but THEIR incompetencies and inadequacies (and they are theirs not yours) have hurt you and for now, like anyone who has been injured, you need to recover.
Such wise and supportive words from you all - thank you.
wise words indeed - all I can add is hugs from me, xx
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