Bicycles

I can see that I have come a huge distance in recovery and in knowing and understanding myself better. However, the strategies I need to use are not yet automatic and I still need reminders to use them, and reminders of which strategies to use. It's a bit like a child learning to ride a bike. I am at the stage where I need "stabilisers" to cope with the wobbles - or a cheerleader who will run alongside me and correct my balance when I wobble, or pick me up when I fall. I am sure that in time I will not need that, but at the moment I do. Where I find that support is uncertain at present; if my CPN were not off work on long term sickness I would be able to turn to her, but unfortunately I cannot. I'm still waiting for an appointment to come through with the counsellor through the GP, who I am sure will be able to provide that support. In the meantime I need to be able to accept my own "wobbles" and my need of support without condemning myself.