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Emailed the head of CPN service, who is supposedly standing in for my SPN in her absence, about my concerns / struggles - no reply - no surprise there then.

However, also emailed my psychologist, even though he has not replied to any emails from me in the last 6 weeks (am sure he is preparing me for him not being there after my last session in - gulp - a week or so. He did reply, bless him. A brief reply, but one which gave me useful reminders.
Now, repeat after me,
"I must do more self nurturing."
"This is not the start of a downward spiral."

So, plans for next week:
a trip to the gym with my friend H (if we can get our diaries together!)
more craft activities in the evenings
less vegetating in the evenings
don't go into hibernation.