I don't even want to arrange things for me.
I don't want to be responsible.
I don't want to be an adult.
I don't want to make decisions.
I don't want to have to tell you about the flashbacks.
I don't want to be responsible for keeping myself safe.
I don't want to feel guilty.
I don't want to be a parent ... a child ... a wife
I don't want to "be good".
I don't want to make sure other people are OK, or happy.
I'm not really sure i want to exist*
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