I am so tired, and there is so much to do and so little space to do it in.
Today was spent failing to do Christmas shopping.
The run up to Christmas is so stressful. J being away seems to make it more so. Plus things are tough at work right now.
I want to find ways to release the pressure. In the past I have used "negative" coping methods. I don't want to resort to those again, but I feel like I am running out of options. I'm not even sure I can talk to J about why things have been so difficult when I see her again. There's some internal shut down going on. It's scary.