Thursday, 7 February 2008


I ... am ... just ... so ... tired....

All I want to do is sleep.

I get up. Go to work. (Long long hours this week - haven't got home before 6pm once, and given that I start at 8.15 that ain't good). I come home. I veg out for a while, eat some tea, and go to bed.

I get up at 6.30. I go to bed by 9.

And I am so so tired that I don't know what to do.

Today I forgot that I was teaching a lesson. Yes, really. I thought I was on a non-contact. Only realised after 15 minutes I was teaching. Fortunately a teaching assistant was with the class. She was about to send a mesage for me.

It looks like I will have to do quite a bit of work over the holidays, writing reports. I need to sleep. It scares me how much of my life I want to sleep away.


mandy lifeboats appeal said...

This is a tough one because sleep can be very therapeutic. It certainly helped me earlier on today. Then again, our situations are very different.

For you, I guess that routine sleep or sleep that slots into a routine is important.

Teaching is a demanding profession so am not surprised you are tired. When it half term? Is it next week? If so, at least then you will have more quality time at home. I know that can seem a long way off but is something to look to.

Right now, for me, any sleep is a blessing (well the ones with nice dreams)

Go gently on yourself


Rainbow dreams said...

Sleep must be a need - it's not a want - it's a need... it is healing and the body demands it... plus you are working hard - all processing and working is hrad and the mind needs time to rest as much as the body.
We are all more productive when we are rested - so hoe you manage over half term - only one more day to go if you are the same as us...
Hugs and sorry for being away recently - it's been busy and I got caught up..

Disillusioned said...

Hi Mandy

Yes, sleep is therapeutic - it's how much I need that concerns me. I'm sure it is due to the demands of teaching. A colleague observed a lesson of mine yesterday and commented on how much energy I used in teaching. I tried to be gentler with myself today...

Katie, HI!
Am hoping for more rest over half term too. Need to plan in my time to ensure it - some days already have activities planned, others not. Am thinking Monday will be a good day to get the rest of the reports out of the way, as I have various errands to go on too. Those will break up the burden of the writing. Have just remembered an important omission - forgot to copy some files to my laptop, which may curb my efforts for one class. Oh well!