Tuesday, 21 August 2007

It's all my fault, apparently

According to Bedfordshire and Luton mental health trust, in their response to my complaint:

M "has maintained a professional manner"
I "did not always take up support"
M "has never made accusations"
I have been given a toolkit "designed to discourage over dependency on mental health services and to encourage you to gain a sense of independence to improve your well-being in the community" (this as justification for not giving me CMHT support)
M has done everything she can to support me.
I have been derogatory and personal.

well, thank you blpt for listening to me so carefully and being so responsive. Thank you for continuing to be so considerate of my needs. Thank you for your constant concern for my wellfare and well being. I now feel like a total piece of shit - as i clearly deserve to.

7 comments:

theMuddledMarketPlace said...

You indeed may feel like that.
Fact.

But you do not deserve to.
Fact.

And it's not your fault, merely their (official) take on a situation.
(Smelly) Fact.

hugs and I wish you were nearer for a brew as well, we could sit in companiable silence.

Rainbow dreams said...

you do not deserve to at all... quite the opposite...
it just means they haven't even tried to redeem themselves...they have their story and they are sticking to it...
it sucks, it feels like shit...it's not fair, or just... in fact it's not anything - it's their official take...

on the other hand you have survived and come through despite them and you should be proud of that...

Sometimes people are blind because if they admit to seeing the faults they have to do something about them...

A cuppa sounds good - and will be thinking of you on thursday, x hugs too

Caroline said...

am rendered hopelessly vindictive and wishing i could be nearer to simply sit with you, drink tea, then trash an office or three.

i hope and pray that over the vitriol they have spouted you, which i'm sure would make anyone feel like shit, and most cvertainly would make you feel so bad, you can hear and hold the voices that say you are good, and worthy, and loved, and loveable, and loving.

as the others have said, this is their official internal complaints 'take' on it. It doesn't make them right.

it is a response not a resloution of the problem. it raises more questions about their failings than it provides valid refuations - about their policies, their application of policies to you as an individual,

sorry, I'm not surprised you feel ground down by it. you do not deserve to feel bad, you deserve better support and a better response. you have proved that by getting yourself a new support network in the intervening time - you are better than them, Caroline, and you are loved.

Fiona Marcella said...

Isn't it bl**dy wonderful!?

You "did not always take up support" in their system "designed to discourage over dependency on mental health services" i.e. you used the service perfectly appropriately, and yet you end up feeling blamed.

Please try to take this as what it is, the inadequate official take on the inadequate services by a set of inadequate officials.

Hugs, cuppas or even a gin sound like a good idea to me. If after that your (justifiable) rage is still overwhelming then I'd take Caroline up on her offer.

awareness said...

a complete and utter ass covering exercise on their part. How appalling and how frighteningly universal.

Caroline, I'm so sorry your are the brunt of a bunch of people's inability to accept any responsibility in their jobs and actions towards human beings.

It is unfair, unprofessional and just plain crappy.

Kathryn said...

You see....told you that it wasn't you...and all these other sane and sensible people agree. I think Katie hit the nail on the head in saying that deliberate blindness relieves them of the responsibility for doing anything about their failures.
Hang on in there...those who love you know where the truth lies in all this.

Disillusioned said...

Thank you all.

I keep coming back to this.

Reading your assurances helps me to believe you rather than the negative voices.

Now I'm getting angry...

R, my counsellor, told me to watch out for when I start getting angry...