Tired of being tired

Really, I've had enough of this "being ill" lark. Had enough of "taking it carefully" and "not doing too much". I want that energy that Sally described so evocatively here.

At the same time, I do understand and agree with her comments on my last post too, about needing to listen to my body and give in to the tiredness. Dana said something of the same - in fact, most of the people who have commented here have said the same thing. I just find it so hard to follow such good advice. There is so much to do, all of the time, even with H taking up more of the slack (and he is, he really is, and it is great and I have told him so). This sleepiness feels so alien, though. I guess I am not good about making allowances for myself (I hope I am better at making allowances for others, really I do). I catch myself yawning, eyes drooping, when I have done, in my own mind, nothing to merit such a response, and the internal critical dialogue starts up. Listening to my body - that's hard. But others in this house do it. Either I have to find a way of beating the exhaustion by sheer mind power, or I have to give in to it. The internal conflict is just adding to the pressure.