Who am I?

I'm a child, lost in the past
Alice through the Looking Glass
The world is a confusing and dangerous place
Where reality is turned on its head
And mummy needs mothering
And I'm never Daddy's little princess.

I'm a miniature adult, the perfect daughter
Only my parents see my terrible imperfection
And try to teach me perfect ways.

I'm an angry teenager, raging out of control
Swearing at this messed up world
Swearing at how my world has been messed up.

I'm God's child, but fearful of Father
Jesus cannot welcome this child
The "suffer little children" is for me and all of mine.

I'm a wife, a mother, a teacher
A crafter, a do-er, a giver
I'm an idle slut, inadequate, incapable of learning
Isolated, selfish, a user.

I'm a loner, a friend,
Invisible and in your face
Too demanding and too eager to please
Living in a world which doesn't make sense
Living in a world where I don't make sense.

I feel scared, anxious, grateful,
supported, unsupported, out of control
I feel useless, hopeless, inadequate,
Disregarded and without a future.