How long?
How long can one person keep struggling against it all? A day? A week? A life sentence?
How long can I be an ostrich before I am forced to pull my head out of the sand and face impending dangers? Too long, it seems.
How long must I be the one who makes things happen? Until someone else is willing to take charge? Well, that's never, then.
How long till I have some energy again?
I want - really want - to run away from it all. From all the problems, all the responsibilities, all the fear. I want to run away from myself, from everyone who knows me, to have no recollection of myself or of them. For if I remember them I am filled with guilt.
I don't know who I can begin to share the worries with any more. I just know it has all been going on for too long.
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No answers but my love and prayers, Caroline xx
Thank you kathryn. The love and prayers are just what I need.
It's very tough when all the responsibilities rest on only one set of shoulders.......to always be the strong one....i totally get this.
so.......I'm thinking.......it's best not to watch Shirley Valentine in the near future! :) I know I'm avoiding it...... :)
Thanks Dana - I'll remember that! Choosing the struggles to take ona nd those to avoid is a major issue for me at the moment. Yesterday reminded me I am not good right now at saying, "No more..."
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