Bad evening. I had too much going on today and made too many demands on myself - and was still tired and stressed from yesterday. Then had the demands of others laid upon me and tonight I am finding it hard to cope. Have taken valium to try to numb things at least slightly.
None of my work friends have contacted me in the last week and I am finding that hard. I know they have stuff going on but i am still finding it hard.
Had a psychotherapy session today. At the end D asked me for a verdict on where I am now compared to the last three weeks. My verdict (with which he agreed) was that i am better than I was but still fragile.
I want to hide away somewhere safe.
I'm a rambling mass of inconsistencies, some hidden and some all too apparent. A "messy human", wishing to be visible and yet invisible, cherishing my differences but longing to fit in.
Blogs I read
- A Fortunate Man
- A Long Walk to Forever
- Awareness
- Dare to Dream
- Fighting the Urge
- Frolicking Through Llife
- Good in parts
- I'm a Medical Student...
- Lake Cocytus
- Mandy
- Marcella
- Medicines, Animals and a Dream
- Mental nurse
- Mouse
- Nearly time
- Neenaw
- One Pedestrian Away
- Pip
- Pole to Polar
- Police Inspector Blog
- Rainbow Dreams
- Random Acts of Reality
- Rufus May
- Schizophrenia - a Carer's Story
- Seratonin
- The fight for Mrs Carr
- The muddled marketplace
- There and Back
- Traumaqueen
- Useless CPN
3 comments:
I'm sorry...but you're covering so much ground in such depths, it's bound to become too much for you periodically.
Hope you have had a bit of space and calm.
Love and prayers
cri30tterlove and prayers, stay safe, nad be gentle and kind to yourself,
xc
Thanks, kathryn, for the reassurance. Not sure I really found a quiet safe space, but retreated to bed and got some sleep.
Caroline, thanks for the reminders about what I need to do for myself. Being gentle and kind to myself can sometimes be hard to remember to do.
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